This is the story of a girl

So there's this guy who at the beginning of the year liked me, and at that point I wasn't sure if I really liked him. So I was stupid and definitly messed that up. But now I do kinda like him and I don't know what to do. Problem number 1: Two of my friends don't really like him, so what are they going to think. Problem 2: I don't even think he likes me anymore. We're friends, and I can't really bring it up in everyday conversation. It would make things more akward then they already are. I don't know what to do, I'll probably just leave it alone. I feel like I'm in junior high, I should be able to figure these things out.

Formal was last night, it was fun. Here are some pictures
Home in 12 days :D

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xx I _____ Celeste.
xx Celeste is _____.
xx Celeste needs ______.
xx I want to _____with Celeste.
xx Celeste can ______.
xx Someday Celeste will _______.
xx Celeste reminds me of _______.
xx Without Celeste, _________.
xx Celeste can be _______.
xx Worst thing about Celeste is ________.
xx Best thing about Celeste is ________.
xx I think Celeste should _________.
xx If I could spend the day with Celeste, I'd ____________.
xx Celeste is the _________.
xx If I could be Celeste for a day, I'd ______.
xx I want to give Celeste a ________.
xx The song _____ by _____ reminds me of Celeste.

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Today was a good day. It started off with Art, which is the best class. A little bit of art history and then I worked on my sketchbook assignment. Then Chemistry. Mr.Swan had a breakdown of sorts. It's kind of a sin really, he was almost crying. So he went home and we had an offclass and Sarah and I went to the Library. Then it was lunch which was good. And then English, I finished reading Animal Farm. The ending is really good. She put us in partners/groups to research topics about the Russian Revolution on Monday. I'm working with Devin, she always puts us in the same group, maybe she thinks we work good together, I don't know. Then it was French class, we had a pizza party/birthday party for Mme.Galloway and Ryan called in to C100 and wished her happy birthday over the radio. It was funny. I don't have to babysit tonight because Karen is sick so she's staying home. On Sunday we're going to the Maritime fall fair, I like going there. My favorite part is the Super Dogs :D I think it will be a while before I make plans with Teri again, they always get canceled one way or another, so I'm kinda mad about that. And now she's pretty much best friends with Rena so she's always with her, I don't care if she's friends with her that's her choice. Or she's with Timmy. But still, make some time to spend with your other friends too. Yes it may seem like I spend a lot of time with Ryan but I do try to spend time with my other friends to but they already have plans with other people so I spend that time with Ryan. But when you say you're gonna call someone, call them. I havn't really been the best of friends with Justine lately and I kinda regret it and Alyssa, we're not as close as we used to be. But I guess everything happens for a reason. Anyway I guess that's all for now.

Today seemed like it was a really long day. I think it was because it was really nice outside and we're stuck inside all day, except for lunch of course, but still. We should have classes outside. For french class Ryan, Everett and I are going to make a movie for the final project, it will be very interesting lol. Last night I was talking to Alyssa on MSN. We were talking about old memories, it was great. God I miss her. Hehe I told her she reminded me of me now because she's really boy crazy. I used to be like that, I had a crush on a different guy everyday and she wouldn't go near them and she wuold roll her eyes everytime I talked about guys, but now she's the boy crazy one. It was 9 months the other day for me and Ryan. It's my longest realationship ever. I find it funny because people thought that when I was going out with Roma that we were the perfect couple and we'd be together for a long time which wasn't true and when Ryan and I started going out people said that our relationship wouldn't last. Guess what, they were wrong. I love you! The dreams are back again grrrr this one was really weird but it seemed so real, oh well I'm used to them now. I have weird dreams anyway. I want to get my licence soon, but I'm kinda scared. It would be nice to have though. Well I guess that's all for now.

Yesterday was great. I spent it with Ryan. We went for a walk and then went to his house and then Kellys nephews hockey game and then back to his house. We wathched The Butterfly Effect and a little bit of FINDING NEMO. We were supposed to go play pool with Teri but when I called her she was at Ashley's. I guess she really, really wanted to go. But the time I spent with Ryan was really nice. Degrassi was really good tonight, it was sad though. Kinda scary actually. It's been raining all day and most of yesterday, it sucks. The weather is so depressing. Anyway I think that's all for now, my entries have been really short lately, oh well.

I hate MSN, I've been trying to sign in for the last half hour and it's not working "The .NET Messenger Service is undergoing routine maintenance. The service may be unavailable. Please try again later." Grrrrrr I don't want to try it later, I want to sign in now. I was pretty cranky today and I don't know why. Trudys party last night was okay. Tomorrow is going to be spent with Ryan. Blah I don't feel like writing anything else.

The World Is Black-Good Charlotte

Turn on channel seven at a quarter to eight
You see the same damn thing it's just a different day and
No one really knows why this is happening
But it's happening
And everywhere you go it's just a different place
You get the same dark feeling
See the same sad faces
No one really cares that this is happening

We come into this world
And we all are the same
In that moment there's no one to blame

But the world is black
And hearts are cold
And there's no hope
That's what we're told
And we can't go back
It won't be the same
Forever changed
By the things we say, say

Living in this place it's always been this way
There's no one doing nothing so there's nothing changed
And I can't live when this world just keeps dying
It's dying
People always tell me this is part of the plan
That God's got everybody in his hands
But I can only pray that God is listening
Is he listening?

We're living in this world
Growing colder everyday
Nothing can stay perfect now I see

But the world is black
And hearts are cold
And there's no hope
That's what we're told
And we can't go back
It won't be the same
Forever changed
By the things we say, say, say

We come into this world
And we all are the same
And in that moment there's no one to blame
But we're living in this world
Growing colder everyday
Nothing can stay perfect now I see

The world is black
And hearts are cold
There's no hope
That's what we're told
And we can't go back
(We can't go back)
It won't be the same
(It won't be the same)
Forever changed
(What will ever change)
By the things we say, say, say

Turn on channel seven at a quarter to eight
You see the same damn thing it's just a different day
And no one really knows why this is happening

I changed my layout :D, and before you ask I'll answer you right now, yes I am just a little bit obsessed with Happy Bunny lol

Last night I went to the mall with Ryan. We ran into Brock and Melissa. *Cough*Franklin*Cough* hehe Anyway...I bought Good Charlottes new cd. It's good, but I like the last one better. Then Ryan walked me home, it was nice. We went to see Fahrinhight(sp?)451 today, it was really good. It was cold in the theature though. Trudys party is tomorrow. I have to babysit in about 45 minutes. Well I have to go eat supper, I'll update tomorrow.

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rei_ayaname goes trick-or-treating, dressed up as vampire.
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rei_ayaname ends up with 59 pieces of candy, a clothespin, and a wad of paper.
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My hair is purple!Oh ya!:D I don't really know how purple it's going to be because it's not dry yet, so right now it's pretty dark. It's not gonna last long though it'll come out in 8-10 washes. It's that new mouse stuff that dyes your hair. It's awsome!:) I wonder how long it will take for Ryan to notice lol I think I'm going there for supper, he's supposed to call after he gets off work. I saw Shark Tale today it was really good, it's my new favorite movie, but it dosn't beat Finding Nemo. Well that's all for now.

Today was a pretty good day. French was first it was okay, I like french class but there are some people who can be really distracting sometimes and I don't like being in the class with the grade 12's but now I can understand Mme. Galloway better :D Gen de Parole demain. Je deteste Gen de Parole :( Next was English. We read half of Fahrenheit 451 in the period, each person read a few pages and then reported back to the class about what they read. We're going to see the play next Friday. I got 12/15 on my test :) and James, Julie and I all got 9.5/10 on our Short story movie :D We have a new seating plan, I sit by Matt. Then was lunch, nothing to exciting happened. Nothing exciting ever happens at lunch really, there's nothing to do. But I get to be with Ryan, well really I'm with him most of the day, but we don't get to sit next to each other except in Art. So after lunch was Art, I continued to work on my container project, it's gonna take me forever. Then it was chemistry, it was actually kinda boring, we looked at photons of light of different elements, it was pretty lol. Then I went to the doctor after school and then Nanny and Poppys house. And now I'm here. Well I'm done for now,I'm sure you all found this very interesting lol If you actually read it.

I got called back into work this morning, a little while before I was going to call Ryan. I was going to say that I couldn't go back in, but no, I said ya sure I'll be there in a few minutes. There was one kid, Abby was her name. We went to the museum and The Public Gardens. She was a big fan of Christina Augulara lol I was like uhh ya ok then.....So I didn't get to see Ryan. This weekend went by really fast. We have an English quiz tomorrow. And we get to go back to the lab in Chemistry :D Poor Brock didn't get to play with fire the other day lol. He says I confuse him sometimes, which isn't really that hard to do. So I was talking to Roy yesterday I think it was and we came to the conclusion that I'm pretty much paranoid, constantly worrying about everything. I mean everyone worries, and it never used to bother me that I worried so much but now it's really starting to get to me, it's so stressful. Well I guess that's all for now.

Well that was fun. Went to work this morning and there was only two kids registered for the inservice camp. One showed up but we ended up sending him home and I guess Chris called the other one to tell her not to come. I had a feeling that something like that would happen. So now I'm not doing anything. I think I will call Ryan in a little while so then we can spend time together before he goes to work. He works pretty much every night this week so I'm not going to get to see him much this week. Yesterday we went to go see the Queen Mary II (the cruise ship that was here) It was really, really big. I would love to go on that, it would be awesome. Then we went for ice cream, then Subway and then bowling. That was fun. I want to go again sometime.

Friday I worked. It was easy, we made cookies and that was fun. Lol this is probably the easiest job ever, I get to be a kid again and I get paid for it. I used to complain about it alot but that was because there was so many kids and they never listened, but right now there's only 3 kids. Friday night I babysat Emma,It's really easy but it can be boring sometimes because she sleeps the whole time and then all I have to do is watch tv or whatever. Then came home and called Ryan at 11:45pm lol I probably shouldn't have but I did. He was awake, I kinda figured that he would be because he never goes to sleep until really late, he was surrprised I called him that late. Then last night I went to Uncle Mike and Aunt Dianes house for Uncle Mikes surprise party. That's two surprise partys in the last two months, first mine and then his. My Moms birthday is soon. I don't know what to get her but I have a few ideas. So I work 8:30-4 tomorrow because it's an inservice day, back to the good ol' 7 and a half hour days. Bowling tonight :D I can't wait, it's about time too. It's surprising that me and Ryan havn't gone bowling yet. I have a bit of a cold :( I hate being sick and it's probably gonna get worse too.

Great times in Chemistry today. I actually kinda like that class. It would be boring though if Brock wasn't in it, and I like doing the labs. I like my other classes alot more though. Ok almost everyday in Art theres one or two people who always have to argue with Mrs.Veno at the beginning which takes twenty minutes and then it takes her another twenty minutes to explain what to do, which takes up half the class and that makes me mad. And those are the people who complain that they don't have enough time to finish the projects.I think the project that we're doing now should be cool. We have to create a box and a treasure to go inside the box. I think I'm going to make a tree and then you open it up and theres a monkey inside of the tree or a baseball and you open that up and there's something inside of that. I don't know yet. I don't want to go to English tomorrow because I don't want to watch the movie we made. Oh well, hopefully I didn't do that bad.